Making a Spectacle of Oneself in the Academy Using the H-Index: From Becoming an Artificial Person to Laughing at Absurdities

This article offers autoethnographic insights into the consequences of making a spectacle oneself in audit culture academy. Spectacle 1 explores my experiences using h-index as part an annual salary review and how this made me feel like artificial person. 2 shows how, at conference, I used laughter to expose some absurdities felt better for doing so. Stories that tell different truths about ourselves combination with corporeality laughter, suggest, can assist us re-attune resist process becoming persons.